Thursday, October 20, 2005

TODAY

Couldn't let this day pass without honoring it even though I am really feeling crummy today. Woke up at 3:30 this morning needing to hurl! Have a bad headache and have thrown-up few more times since then. I'm so very tired. Anyway......

If my first husband had not succumbed to the cancer that was ravaging his body 30 years ago, he and I would be celebrating our 38 Wedding Anniversary today. Looking back I can remember that day just as plainly as it happened yesterday. I never thought so much happiness could be stuffed into one day......I was wrong. But rather than getting melancholy here, suffice it to say that my life went on, I raised my three children, found love again, remarried and have had a good life. In spite of all that, I feel it is important to remember those special days in my life and to appreciate them for what they were no matter how long they lasted. Even though he was only a part of my life for 8 years, they were 8 very good years. Had I known when I married him that is all the time we would be allowed.......I would have done it anyway. It was worth it. Thinking of you with love today, Dave!

7 comments:

McSwain said...

What a bittersweet day it must be for you. You sound like a strong, amazing lay. God bless, and you feel better!

naive-no-more said...

She is a strong and amazing lady!

Sorry you are feeling sick today and equally sorry for the loss you've experienced.

Lori said...

It's amazing how dates stay with us forever and take us back to certain times and people.

I'm so sorry for your loss, but commend you for staying strong and moving forward to your life. It sounds like you've been blessed twice with love.

martie said...

Thank you for your kind thoughts, Cheryl!

Thank you for the nice words, I probably don't really deserve them, but thank you just the same, naive-no-more!

And Lori, I have been blessed with so much love in my lifetime and am truly grateful!

Bougie Black Boy said...

You always amaze me with your words and the emotions behind them. The unique-ness (nowadays, at least) of such family values and the infrastructure of it is always found within 99% of your write-ups on here. You're definitely one of a kind.

Bougie Black Boy said...

. . . and it's so refreshing (I think I've used that word before to describe your blog) to read words like yours, after writing such abrasive stuff as mine. We have equal opposite blogs, but that's what makes me come back--our differences in our approach to the world.

martie said...

stephen, thank you. I consider this high praise coming from someone as talented as I believe you are. I suspect the differences in our approach to the world, stem from our different backgrounds. If memory serves me, I think you said once that you are from West Virgina...and I was born and raised in the mid-west. And then again, the times were different for me having been raised in the ealry 1950's and 1960's. I have found though that differences make for very interesting friends!