Monday, July 12, 2010

I am tired...............

tired of not being able to do the things I want to do and the things I need to do.  I didn't realize just how physically exhausted this would make me.  Just trying to function from day to day and keep up with the housework and all.  As soon as the house market picks up here, I believe we will be putting our home up for sale and downsizing to perhaps a 2 bedroom all on one floor.  I know a two-story is not workable for me anymore.  There are times I just want to lie down and sleep and never have to get up again.  Feeling this way is so out of character for me and the way I have always felt in the past.  Now, I feel like I am a bother to everyone and more of a hindrance than a help.  I have always been the one people have turned to when they needed help.............and I just can't do that anymore.  It saddens me to think that this is what it has come down too.  But, I guess it is what it is and there is nothing I or anyone can do about it.  Unless they come up with some new technology to be able to fix the health problems I have.............and I hope and pray that they do!