Saturday, August 12, 2006

Remembering...

As another August rolls around and my first (deceased) husbands birthday has just passed, I wonder.....

who'd you be today? Sitting here listening to a Kenny Chesney song and wondering about my first husband, Dave. He died too young. At the age of 34 of Malignant Melanoma.....a lethal form of skin cancer. I wonder who he would be today. Who would my kids be today? Would they be any different if they had been raised by both of us instead of just me? I'll never know the answer to that question. But still, I wonder....

Also, wondering about my stillborn grandson, Owen. We never got a chance to know him; to watch him grow; to enjoy him and who he would be today!

9 comments:

Ame said...

oh ... i have only tears ... no words ...

Connie and Rob said...

My dear friend,
I think your husband would be very pleased you are thinking of him today. They never leave our hearts. My friendship is here for you while you are feeling sad about your husband and grandson.
I will say a prayer for you.
Hugs,
Connie

Renee said...

That song always make me think about certain people in my life too and wonder . .
I'm sending happy vibes your way.

The Editor said...

(((Martie)))

Sending you friendship hugs. It is rough sometimes to think of loved ones that have gone on to heaven and wonder about what if they had lived longer. I miss my aunt. She died of cancer in her mid fourties. Her birthday was in July. All of her kids except one had just graduated before she passed. But, they were all still young, you know. Two in their early twenties and one still in highschool. They needed their mom. But, things happen for reasons. Those who have passed are still with us I truly believe.

chesneygirl said...

One of my favorite Kenny songs!

Always really makes me think too.

Hugs to you! :)

Connie and Rob said...

Dear Martie,
For me when I think of my husband and now my mom...I am jealous that they are in heaven and left me behind! I told my mom that she was going to this beautiful cloud and the image I have in my mind is so peaceful that earth just seems a mess.lol

Hugs,
Connie

clew said...

You know I remember with you, my friend.

Much love.

Bainwen Gilrana said...

Blessings, sweet friend. :-)

Mindless Dribbler said...

Martie,

I see you were in a brooding mood here. I, too, get like that with my Mom.

Just knowing she's so much better off now helps to ease the hurt, although, nothing but a reunion will totally take it away,it does help nonetheless.

I feel for you....and my thoughts are with you.

Mike